It's been a little over 4 months since I joined the Bank. Though I'm more adjusted to it, there's still some things I don't like about it.
The fact that I always have to make and answer calls, being at the beck and call of my RM, having to rush everything... Aaargh, it's so not me.
I just know I have to tough it out. If not till September (my anniversary), then it would probably be until May 2011, after our lease is up.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Friday, January 7, 2011
Must Endure, Must Love It
I prayed for this opportunity to work at a more prestigious bank, and my prayers were heard. I promised I will work hard and try to excel, and I believe I'm doing the best I can.. but somehow, along the way, I lost that 'fire in the belly' (quote stolen from my previous big boss).
So, it's not the work per se, it's me!
But, since I'm still here, I shall do my best not to embarrass those people who supported this job move.
Sigh, in truth, there was a period (maybe a month or so), when I felt so stuck in this life. I don't know what to do, I don't know what my future would be like, I'm afraid to risk anything. I was so stuck that I felt like just giving up. There was a point when I felt I was ready to just die and leave this all behind.
But now, somehow I felt something stir inside me. Now there's a teeny tiny spark in my belly. I want to live and be happy.
So, it's not the work per se, it's me!
But, since I'm still here, I shall do my best not to embarrass those people who supported this job move.
Sigh, in truth, there was a period (maybe a month or so), when I felt so stuck in this life. I don't know what to do, I don't know what my future would be like, I'm afraid to risk anything. I was so stuck that I felt like just giving up. There was a point when I felt I was ready to just die and leave this all behind.
But now, somehow I felt something stir inside me. Now there's a teeny tiny spark in my belly. I want to live and be happy.
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