Internal Turmoil

It's 2:48pm, Sunday.. Still so early, but the moment I woke up (about 1140+am), I already had that heavy feeling.

I used to dread Mondays, but who doesnt? But it used to strike on Sunday evenings.. never so early.

Why am I feeling this?

I'm so sad, I want to cry, I feel so alone.

I don't want to tell anybody else, less they think I'm too negative.

But I don't want this anymore. I feel so alone in the office, I have limited knowledge, I don't know who to turn to. Everybody gives me jargoned answers, and with that impatient tone.

I'm always so tensed, my muscles all bunched up. I get calls whenever, and even on evenings and Saturdays. I am always so scared of doing something wrong, especially since knowing they can't tolerate any mistakes.

I don't even have the urge to make friends with anybody. I just want to be alone always, and not have any other attachments.